TV Day

I thought I was doing well this morning. I was able to go through the morning routines of meditation, breakfast, and checking e-mail and social media in less time then usual, and then I did a workout for an hour. I felt good about being able to put on pants in the morning and looked forward to getting back into coding, but something happened. I felt a tightness in my chest. It felt like the beginning of another panic attack. I found it hard to do any coding. I needed to get away from the increasingly bad news. I watched another episode of Star Trek: Picard. That helped.

Later, I used a new Chrome browser extension called Netflix Party to watch an episode of the a new series on Netflix called Locke and Key. I've heard it described as being like an updated version of The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe, but it's more adult than that. The episodes involve teenagers and their kid brother who discovers magical keys that open doors in the family's ancestral house with unexpected results. I used Netflix Party so I could watch it simultaneously with my sister Monika, who lives in Seattle. The chat feature in the program allows us to make smart remarks about the characters and weird situations in the show. We watched the first episode on Wednesday; we're trying to spread out the episodes over the next few weeks. This episode was entertaining enough, and Monika and I said our goodbyes and logged off. I spent the rest of the evening trying to catch up on e-mail and study code, but when I went to bed I still felt some tightness in my chest and wondered if I have something that is more than just anxiety.